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[heavensnight]

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Lilith, or "Black Moon Lilith," is a point in your birth chart that reveals your personality's hidden or taboo parts. It indicates where you've kept your true desires secret to avoid criticism or rejection. This hidden side, often called your shadow, represents everything society considers forbidden or unacceptable.

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random textie.

[solids]

hey um so....sorry I can't pick you up tonight. this gig is killing me.

but I wanted to tell you something.

[heavensnight]

pouting. I'll miss you. 🩷 Tom will be happy to be my chauffeur again anyway.

What did you want to tell me?

[solids]

I'll miss you too.

( which is part of the reason why he's feeling a bit more bold about this. )

so you and I are, like dating, right?

[heavensnight]

[she's smiling. he can't see how much she is but she feels like she some girl flirting with her first boyfriend.]

Do you want us to be?


[she's teasing him because that's what she does. but for Adam, that took some guts so she quickly texts again.]

Because I want us to be.

[solids]

this is pretty fucking silly of me, but you know how I am.

( he was [unbeknownst to him] feeling exactly the same way. why did it feel like this was the first time he was actually dating someone? )

well uh I want more than that.

[heavensnight]

More than dating?

[she's not teasing anymore because this feels like a very serious conversation. that they're having over text. fucking hell, Adam.]

[solids]

( she can chew his ass out over this later-

if he doesn't say this now, he feels like he never will. )

I don't have much to offer and frankly you could do better, hypothetically speaking but-

Mr. Whiskers adores you, and I'd hate to rip him from a stable parental figure. I guess I'm saying I want to you know?

Be your fucking boyfriend.

[heavensnight]

[she will absolutely get on his case for this later. lovingly. but this is ridiculous and he couldn't ask her the other times they saw each other??? he had to choose the night he can't see her?

but she's too happy to complain right now. a single negative thing isn't on her mind right now.]

I don't really want much else than you. That's all I've wanted this whole time.

So I want you to be my boyfriend. I want to be your girlfriend. All yours.

[solids]

( no he could not, he absolutely needed to get it out now or never.

on the upside, this shitty night was starting to become far better. )

are you sure? you can say no and escape me because I'm pretty terrible.

but I'll try and be better, promise.

[heavensnight]

if I didn't want you then I wouldn't be here so I'm positive.

Besides you're the one asking a stripper to be your girlfriend. You haven't been jealous but is THAT okay? Don't know what else I can do.

[they have never discussed that part before. is now even the best time to talk about this? if he was bringing this all up now then she would bring her stuff up.]

[solids]

( it wasn't something he had really thought about to be honest, because what right did he have to judge her or ask anything of her? he certainly isn't going to know but... )

well

I guess I should say this but, as long as you aren't sleeping with anyone else but me, I'm not too concerned. no kissing and falling in love with one of your clients, all that shit.

I'm easy to please I guess.

[heavensnight]

Yeah no. That's not happening. Won't lie and say I never have if they were rich. Diamonds are a girl's best friend and all that materialistic stuff.

But I'd rather have you. I haven't been doing that since I met you.

[there had been some regulars she'd occasionally mess around with but she'd told them she was done with it when she started seeing Adam more.]

[solids]

( well luckily for them both, adam was...

pretty much just focused on maria this entire time. his angry feminist, vegan punk ex-girlfriend was far in the past now. there was just one more thing though, the way she spoke about the materialistic stuff. )

listen I can't offer you much to be honest, if you're really okay with that, there's one more thing I want.

I don't want to make you move into my crap-hole, and I can't move into yours with our son, but uh...

I'm working really hard to move somewhere better so you can move in with me someday. If that's okay?

[heavensnight]

[she had tried to make it a point with Adam she didn't care if he could buy her expensive things or not. she'd made sure not to wear any of the designer crap men had gotten her around him.

though she had assumed he would probably assume it obviously wasn't his money that kept her coming back. if it was about money then she wouldn't be here.]

I'd move in with you anywhere. even with that bathroom with the crappy bathtub.

[solids]

( it didn’t quite make him feel bad, in fact if maria knew what it made him feel, she would be proud of him-

it actually gave him some direction in life for once. he genuinely wanted to try and be a better version of himself for her sake. so when he had those outbursts about money, it was because of his goals. )

crappy bathtub? I consider it avant-garde. the lime colored walls, the blue tone of the tub, very kitschy.

[heavensnight]

You're the one with the artist's eye here. I'll take your word for it.

but that thing could barely fit a 10 year old probably. let alone two grown adults.

[not that she was complaining. it had been a nice moment and something she could laugh about. something she hoped they could remember fondly in the future.]

[solids]

you know, your sense of humor makes me forget how bad the place is.

I’ll start looking for places with something bigger.

( is he about to get sappy on her? yes, yes he is. )

[heavensnight]

I'm not gonna lie and say it isn't. It absolutely is

But I'm really happy to be anywhere with you. I mean it.

[not if she gets sappy first.]

[solids]

you’re really making it hard for me not to fall hard for you, you know?

[heavensnight]

Only fair. You've made it hard for me not to fall for you.

[solids]

how did I get so lucky, seriously? nothing but shit luck in my life until I met you.

[heavensnight]

You're being very romantic for a guy who can't even see me tonight. Kind of a tease

[solids]

I guess I’ll have to make it up to you somehow…

gee I wonder what you’ll come up with.

[heavensnight]

You have to!! I can't even kiss you

When are you available anyway?

[solids]

I should be home around 4 in the morning, I can pick up some Denny’s if you want?? cute delivery boy with kisses for tips