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[heavensnight]

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Lilith, or "Black Moon Lilith," is a point in your birth chart that reveals your personality's hidden or taboo parts. It indicates where you've kept your true desires secret to avoid criticism or rejection. This hidden side, often called your shadow, represents everything society considers forbidden or unacceptable.

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[hurtling]

( her question left him a bit surprised, eyes rolling up at her as he looked at her with a rather curious expression. instead of finding humor or being terribly shocked by the suggestion, he almost seemed intrigued. )

I wasn't quite thinking of that....but I suppose...

( it was terrifying how he looked when his mind went to work, and while he rested there on the bed, eventually he reached for a sheet to cover his body with. his words were going to be a bit more brazen now, but even he couldn't be confident in himself enough to vocalize it openly. to be in his own skin to demand such things of maria. )

A small and thin leopard print choker would look good on you....

( he knew what he might be implying here and how things would look like to anyone looking in from the outside. he just didn't care anymore, he was a freak who could never truly love anyone anymore. what he did now was just chasing his own pleasure and satisfaction at the expense of everyone around him. )

[heavensnight]

[had this always been James? Maria couldn't say. with Mary, he'd always seemed like such a classic man. perhaps a little blunt, almost giving blank answers without very much emotion to them at all. Mary had small complaints here and there though it had never been like her to complain about anybody really. any time she'd made mention of James, she'd always looked so guilty.

'he's a good husband, Maria. really.'

and it was her good husband who had just fucked his sister-in-law all night, that was talking about getting her a collar to show just who she belonged to now.

Maria eyed him and even if it didn't seem possible that this man orchestrated anything, she didn't believe he could so such a thing anyway; the situation had easily played out just the way he wanted it.]

Subtle, James. Real subtle. [but for as mocking as she sounded, she wasn't pulling away from him and actions always spoke louder than words.] Not that Mary would think you'd buy such a thing.

[hurtling]

( even james was unsure of when this darkness began to fester and when it began to seep through everything he thought, said, or did. there wasn't much for him to rationalize in this moment— mostly because he just didn't care anymore. the labels he had to live up to tired themselves out far before he did, but when he finally reached them, he had become someone he didn't recognize anymore. none of it mattered in the end really and with his eyes creeping away from her, he reached for the blanket on the bed and simply rolled into it, the coolness from it matching the temperature of his own body. )

There's a lot of things people wouldn't think I was capable of.

( that's his response to her, because he refused to bring up his wife's name up. there was no reason to, still living and breathing in the room far from them, she was already gone in his mind.

all that remained was the future despite how bleak things were starting to look to him now. )

So do you want it? There's a lot....we'll have to do to prepare for you to move in anyways.

[heavensnight]

[did she want it? what a complicated question. Maria had always thought she wanted what Mary had. a loving and caring husband. Maria had thought that was James. even with his faults because every person had them. and what Maria had assumed were James's faults were simple. easy.

but none of this was easy. every plan she had had seemed like it was so far outside of her own control that Maria didn't know. she simply knew there was not much she could do. Mary would be gone and Maria couldn't leave her sister in her final days. and in her final days, she couldn't just tell her she was fucking her husband. that her husband was already working on replacing her.

and that was all Maria was. a replacement.

but what was the alternative? it wasn't like any man had ever wanted to have her. keep her. a collar was suffocating in many ways but it was at least something that tied her to James. for better or for worse.]

Get me the collar. [she sighed and turned onto her back, looking up at the ceiling. Maria knew he wouldn't be cuddling her, he wouldn't be holding her and telling her he loved her. that he'd always loved her and he could see the error of his ways. that it should have always been her.

no. she was just a warm body. a willing one. that was all that mattered to him at this point.]